Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Oh Em Jeeeeee......!

Iman came home from her sekolah agama (religious school) today and handed me a small card.  It was lovely looking but a bit crumpled.  That was not an issue though for what nearly brought me to my early demise were the words written on it!!
LOL!!!  Grrr..I won't take this seriously.  For all you know, who ever gave it to her might not even understand the contents of it!  But I guess I am going to check out that boy anyhow, just in case...!  She is merely 5 years, 2 months and 11 days and already has an admirer..wonder what her father would say.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Learning From the Younger Generation.

One of my greatest flaws as an educator is my inability to bond with my students especially when I am the homeroom teacher.  Theoretically, the homeroom teacher is supposed to be the closest to her class members for she is the one responsible to identify academic and personal issues which impede the growth and development of each students and to also  interact with them informally to at least be aware of what happens to them after school hours.  I guess, it is true when some of the students complaint that I am too strict and unapproachable for their liking hence my inability in building rapport with the students individually.

I don't know why but I just do not like getting to know them closer or on a more personal note.  It is wrong..truly wrong for me as a class teacher to react this way.  However, now in my 10th year of service and the 6th time as a class teacher, I have decided to make several changes to myself and I owe it all to a colleague who is not only younger by 7 years but possesses the commitment and dedication of 10 super teachers.  What opened my eyes were the fact that her students of 5P ( the less abled students who are the most notorious of their lot) adores her to bits.  It was shown during a performance that they had dedicated to her last year, and these roguish macho mean looking things had humbled themselves in front of the whole school and sought forgiveness from her.  That was a first in my 9 years of teaching, to have viewed one teacher being given such great honor!  And what made it more amazing was that the students in the top class, who you would expect to do that hadn't even done so!

All it took was love..sincere love from a parent to a child. Secondly, never give up on them because they have had their parents giving up.  Thirdly, patience, endless amount of patience will lead you to their hearts.  Thus, taking her words as a guidance for my 4 Al- Baihaqi, (somewhat similar to 5P, but with some of them who have learning disabilities and such) I hope to be able to grasp their attention and love for me.  I don't care much if they do not pass my subject because my primary objective and priority is to make them pass the lessons in life which is to respect their parents, teachers, peers and above all to respect themselves to begin with.  So, my first step is to call myself "Mum" because at school, I am their "Mum" and they are my munchkins but taller than me lah..

I have six students calling me "Mum" now..another 30 more to go ..God, please give your blessing on this work I do!  Amin..ya rabbal alamin.

p/s To you dear sister, thank you for sharing your tips. You may be younger but you sure are much wiser than me!   May Allah bless you...

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Are these symptoms of..?

Have been nauseous the past few days.  Everytime I am in front of the computer, I feel like puking my whole guts out.  When I walk along the school corridor, I feel light-headed.  Having headaches, losing my appetite, everything I do is just not I having symptoms?? 

Yes..I think I am suffering from an overdose .. an overdose of workload!!!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Life Isn't All Beer and Skittles 2

You can only have empathy for someone that is as close as you can get to really understanding or feeling other people's pain, sorrow, misfortune or hardships in life. Being empathetic is nothing more, but mere imagination of how a person feels, but it is never the real thing!

Is it possible for anyone to really put themselves in other people's shoes when they have never faced the predicament or woes of others? Then, if they have never, how could they assuredly say:"I know how you feel."? And even if some may have had, felt the same circumstances, it may not be exactly the same because different people have different threshold limits where some can deal with all the pain there is while some can't even bear a mosquito bite. So, what should we do when someone pours out their anguish to us, even if they only wanted us to lend an ear. Do we say:"Yes, I understand how you feel" or do we just keep mum? Then again, keeping quiet could mean that we just don't care however, saying something could also be the wrong thing!

Why is life sometimes so difficult, so complex? If only someone brilliant could come up with "Life 101," that could make it easier...

Silly policy!

If I don't use the textbook, I am going against the orders from the higher authorities..the main people who wear their heels and suits in the main office, going on trips here and there under the name of improvement and finding newer technologies in teaching. But do they know that the Form 4 and Form 5 textbooks is nothing like the SPM examination paper?  Yeah, I use it for the grammar section and comprehension texts, still I got to adapt it to portray the real thing which means making my own sets of q's with relevance to the texts in the book which is time consuming considering I have 5 classes of different abilities.  

So hello you people, revise the textbooks please..then I would surely use it religiously and not resort to taking things from the net or what was complimentary given to me.. Sorry, I am not a hardworking teacher whatsoever, just one who is juggling her life, family, career and setting up her lodging in the Gulf..See, I HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD!!!  

Monday, January 3, 2011

A New Challenge.

Got my timetable and found out that I have been dropped from the PMR team!   Now I have 3 form 4 classes and 2 form 5 classes.  So, that just means I am now in the SPM team which I DO NOT like very much!!!!!  
However, going to take it as my first challenge for the year.