He finally got the keys last four days and this happy news was relayed to me when I was at my Mam's home. I should be enthralled, I am, I think.
No, if you were wondering by any chance, I am not having second thoughts for I have surpassed that phase. I am very sure and definite that I would be joining him there as I do think my place is to support him despite whatever reservations I have. I truly believe that a wife should be by her husband by all means and for that reason I have confronted all the demons inside of me that have been constantly nagging me to stay put here where I feel at home.
Having said that, I can feel a void in my heart already at the thought of leaving this place, this Kerteh where I grew up into an adult, where I learned how to live life, where I learned about keeping a marriage together, where I became a mother, here I found some more true friends who were never afraid to tell me off when I steered from the right path. This is the place that turned me into an adult from that over sensitive, hot tempered lady who was in denial thinking that she is still that 17 year old college girl. Here is where i truly grew up and here is where I built my home and my family. So, how could you leave that all behind in pursuit of financial independence in a foreign land?
I may not be able to speak the Terengganu dialect without my students laughing boisterously saying that I sound like a lost Siamese descendant, but my heart will always be with Terengganu. Funny eh, for a KL girl to love this place so much although I hate the drivers here. Life has to go on. It was written by God that my fate is as such. Although I shall be leaving in 7 months more if God willing, however, I am all teary eyed just thinking about my impending departure.
God, render me a part of your strength to take the first step into this new journey that you have planned for me.
|Kemasek Beach. Isn't this view breathtaking?|