I gained 4 kilos in
just less than two weeks since my hubby came back. Yeah..yeah blame it on him! :)
If you were wondering why gaining some 4 kilos is such a big deal for me, you are totally wrong because it is NOT a big deal..it is bigger than big itself. I know I was NEVER thin but that is not the whole point of fussing about 4 kg.
Well, for a start, with my PCOS, I need to be less than 58 kg for my menstrual cycle to regulate sans the aid of Duphaston which is a good thing for my body. It has always been my own theory that too much medicine can be harmful at times although I am not sure about the hormone pills I am taking to induce my period. I guess it is my own way to find an excuse for not wolfing down those pills.
Secondly, I am afraid of getting diabetes! Ironically, this does not help to curb my appetite for food lately.
Thirdly, when I got married, I was 75 kg and was teased a lot by relatives for being large but today the weight is much less than that..by my standard that is. So, I definitely do not want to be anywhere near that range as it really made my self-esteem really low, not that it is any higher now but at least I feel better than before. At least I can share clothes with my son. I really love those Mickey Mouse pj's I bought.
But then, how could you not eat? It has been 3 months since the kids have had dinner with their father and I do not want to be a killjoy when I choose to eat something else than what I have cooked. My little ones just love having dinner as a family and eating the same food as everyone else at the table. Apart from that, I just can't resist the late night snacks prepared by my husband who RARELY cooks for us.
Then, when I go back to my mam's house, she would prepare all these delicious and mouthwatering dishes like my favorite ikan tenggiri masak lemak cili api, sambal tempe for my hubby, goreng ikan bilis with petai (for hubby again), tauhu sumbat (again for Amat Apis) and all sorts of meat dishes (why are all these Amat Apis' favorite food????). I just don't have the heart to turn her down by refusing a second plate of rice when she, with her heart problem would cook up a storm for my husband!!!
My MIL on the other hand is not a fan of cooking. A simple dish of protein and another dish of veggie is all that it takes to keep the family happy. But when we are around, she would cook more than usual often using coconut milk which is not something common in her kitchen but knowing how I like my coconut milk, that's a sacrifice on her part. I know how tough it is for her to prepare all those dishes so when the table is set, all plates on the table would be filled with rice, can you turn your MIL down? Of course not, especially when she has prepared so much and especially when took her first born child! You DO want to be in her good book although it requires some sacrifice in the vanity sense, right?
Lastly, I know my rambling today are a bit shaky and lame and some might think that I am just making excuses to say that my weight gain is acceptable..but what the heck. It is 3.30 am, I just came back from holidaying at JB. Goodnight or more appropriately, good morning.