Amat Apis whom I met 13 years ago from today, came to me at the right time in my life, when I needed that extra special attention. I was living with 3 other girls who I love very very very much but they just could never possibly fill in that gaping hole in my heart. My loneliness nearly lowered my self-esteem, and that was when I met him. We kicked off very well and 6 months later, we became more than friends and he had saved me from being vulnerable about myself, my appearance. I guess God had it planned that he would always come to stop me from breaking apart.
But Amat Apis being Amat Apis, never having the right words to say to me during my recklessly emotional episodes, however, would never ever falter at doing the right things for me. Just like last week, I was feeling tremendously upset and devastated after I found out that a very personal friend of mine whom I regarded as a sister, a confidante had betrayed me. With my husband not being around to offer me his shoulders to cry on, it made it even harder to swallow. And he, although being many many miles apart, with the sea being in between us, never took that opportunity to neglect me but managed to be there for me, being by my side through that troubling time although not physically. Through ooVoo (something like Skype), he patiently waited for me to finally be relieved of my worries and anger even when it was apparent from the looks on his face that he needed to rest after a hard day's work. He never told me to sleep although it was already 4 a.m, he never told me to stop yapping, he never said anything because he knew all that I wanted was for him to listen.
Knowing that I was still upset, he decided to pacify me by literally being by my side and that is what he just did. To cheer me up, to help me regain myself, he came down all the way from the Gulf be it only for three days, as long as he knew that I was okay. Yes, my husband may have some imperfections, so do I. But one thing that I never have is his extra-ordinary amount of patience and his willingness to do just about anything (within limitations) for me. My weekend last Thursday, would always be a weekend to remember. I know with him by my side, with his support, I could manage just about anything for he would always stop me from tearing apart. I know now why God sent him to me although he deserves a better wife; he was sent to me to save me from myself.